Just The First Day Of My Life

by Mister Benjamin Speed

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released November 2, 2013

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Mister Benjamin Speed Los Angeles, California

Mr Benjamin Speed’s dreams are a major influence on him. He uses them to gather and refine ideas for music, as well as his life. Ultimately he wants to give more love than he receives and aims to transcend space and time through the power of ludicrous thought. He is also addicted to social network buffoonery, liquorice, watermelons and anything with ginger in it. ... more

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Track Name: Shhh... You Had Me At Death (Bullet In My Brain)
I've got a girl and when she's angry
She puts a gun against my head
And then one day she went and shot me down
She pulled the trigger now I'm dead

Oh Oh, Oh Oh
Escaped the scene and on the run
Oh Oh, Oh Oh
The cops are coming and she's done

She doesn't know how much I need her
They say in love that there is pain
She had to make some kind of sacrifice
It's just a bullet in my brain

At the trial she was judged a monster
They gave her for 25 to life
But I don't care that she just shot me cold
I want to make that girl my wife

Oh Oh, Oh Oh
She's just the kind of girl I need
Oh Oh, Oh Oh
Shot to the head will make you bleed

She doesn't know how much I need her
They say in love that there is pain
She had to make a ritual sacrifice
It's just a bullet in my brain

Now she's in prison and restricted
But will not stop to kill again
A smuggled gun and brutal memories
Makes for a bullet in a brain

Oh Oh, Oh Oh
She couldn't stop her raging way
Oh Oh, Oh Oh
The law's a gonna make her pay

And now she's facing death electric
And they're all there to flick the switch
Yeah I don't care that they will fry her brain
Cause that's my girl the crazy bitch

Oh Oh, Oh Oh
As she takes her final breath
Oh Oh, Oh Oh
I sit and watch her sexy death

And now she's with me in the after life
The quantum soup from which we came
We'll be forever shooting mysteries
It's just called love it's not insane

And now she knows how much I needed her
They say in love that there is pain
And I forgive her cause I love this girl
It's just a bullet in my brain

Oh Oh, Oh Oh
They say in love that there is pain
Oh Oh, Oh Oh
And it's just a bullet in my brain
Track Name: Makeshift Heroes
Melody, Where are you
My Melody, I’m dreaming of you

Verse

Right beside me, I’ll be waiting
Fevering, Anticipating
Don’t forget me, Contemplating
Forever dying, Resuscitating
If you love me, I’ll adore you
Give me something, I implore you

Chorus

Melody, Where are you?
Can’t forget me, I’m dreaming of you
Makeshift heroes come and go
And I’m yet to see your face again
Melody, melody, Here in my mind
Stay with me melody, Those makeshift heroes will fall

Melody, Where are you
Don’t forget me, I’m dreaming of you

Verse

I’ve got problems, Need attention
It’s so bad, I’ll never mention
While I need you, Don’t forget me
Have to have you, Never let me
Down, you’ll be here, In my upstream
Out of my life, Into my dreams

Chorus

Melody, Where are you?
Can’t forget me, I’m dreaming of you
Makeshift heroes come and go
And I’m yet to see your face again
Melody, melody, Here in my mind
Stay with me melody, Makeshift heroes cannot
Love you or hurt you cause we are entwined
Be here my melody, Those makeshift heroes will
Crumble and fall
Track Name: Hello Goodbye
Your eyes, disguised
Tried to understand you
Hello, goodbye you're gone
Goodbye, hello
After all we've been through
You still keep hidden your secret

And I heard you whisper
heard you cry
That I'd never love you
And you'd die

Hello, goodbye
it's about that time
I keep on telling myself

Cause I saw you breaking
Saw you weep
As I felt you crumble you said

For his stone cold heart is nothing without me
And his bed lays bare at night
I wished that he could be different
How did he end up like this?
I can pretend it no longer
I found him broken and cold

But my stone cold heart is nothing without you
And my bed lays bare at night
I've grown a heart of indifference
I didn't want it like this
I thought my soul it was older
I don't know what it's become

For my stone cold heart has no resemblance
To the one I had with you
And my stone cold love is only whispering
For the winds of change, and you
Track Name: The Ballad Of The Last Used Man
Verse

It’s the kind of trouble
We all get into
It’s gonna burst your bubble
This one last time
It’s the kind of memory
That scars your brain
It’s the kind of feeling
That just burns inside

Chorus

Cause I’m the last man standing
And I’ve got hell to pay
Cause I’m the man who’ll walk this earth
And give the letters on judgement day
Yeah I’m the last man breathing
When there’s no other plan
With no one left to follow
Here’s the ballad of the last used man

Verse

Ain’t no use of talking
When no one’s breathing
There’s no use of looking
If everything’s gone
When it comes to get you
You better show your face
I know you’re sick of hiding
It’ll tear you up inside

Chorus

Cause I’m the last man standing
And I’ve got death on my side
Cause I’m the man who’ll walk this earth
And take it for one last ride
Yeah I’m the last man breathing
When there’s no other plan
With no one left to follow
It’s the ballad of the last used man
It’s the ballad of the last used man
It’s the ballad of the last used man
Track Name: In My Arms
As you lay there
Staring
Staring
With those magic eyes

I’m listless
listless
And I’ve got no disguise

I need you
I want you
In my arms tonight

And If I lay me down
Baby in my arms
It’s moonlight
In my arms tonight
It’s sunlight
And it’s in my arms

It’s your light
It’s your light
And it’s in my arms
It’s moonlight
It’s sunlight
It’s your light
And it’s in my arms
tonight


I’m watching
Waiting
Waiting
Come home with me tonight

I’m hopeless
Hopeless
In this tragic light

To have you
have you
In my arms tonight

And If I lay me down
Baby in my arms
It’s moonlight
In my arms tonight
It’s sunlight
And it’s in my arms

It’s your light
It’s your light
And it’s in my arms
It’s moonlight
It’s sunlight
It’s your light
And it’s in my arms
tonight
Track Name: I Could've Been A Dreamer
I could’ve been a dreamer
I ended up a schemer
I ended up a hard-nosed man
I should’ve been a writer
I ended up a fighter
With some hard made plans
I should’ve been your lover
I ended up another
And it makes no sense

Cause I should’ve just been home loving you

I ended up angry
I wanted you to thank me
But it all went wrong
I’m fighting with my ego
Baby where did we go
Cause I’m so alone
I know I treat you badly
I want to love you madly
And it makes no sense

So I’m gonna come on home straight to you

Girl I want you to teach me
Baby you can reach me
I’ll be a better man
I want to be your lover
Don’t want to be another
Want you to understand
I’ll write you a letter
It’ll say I’ll treat you better
And that I promise you

That I’m gonna stay on here next to you
And baby that’s what I intend to do

Cause baby you’re my sweetheart
Why did ever we part?
Why did you have to go?
You were my best friend
And our love will never lessen
It was just too strong
That you’re in a better place now
Is the only way I’ll face how
That you died too young

And now I’ll just keep on loving you
Cause that’s the only thing that I can do
Track Name: Just The First Day Of My Life
Verse

So I woke up this morning with a picture in my head
Everything right behind me was like a dream instead
A hazy picture of a girl who felt just like you feel, although
She thought he knew me and this is what she said

Chorus

When I looked up and I saw you it just felt so right
And this is the first day of my life

Verse

You looked in my eyes and you held out your hand
Asleep in my dreams I had hoped and I had planned
You spoke in a language I couldn’t even hear although
One look from you and I would just understand. You said
You’re the first thing and the last thing that enters my mind
And this is just the first day of my life’

Bridge

This is a dream, inside of a dream... just like I hoped it would be
A dream of you, it enters my mind... more I thought I could find

Verse

A hazy puff of winter to just disappear
You were just a memory I’d rather have right here
And I got the shivers right up through my spine
That was just the first day of my life

So I woke up this morning with a picture in my head
Everything right behind me was like a dream instead
A hazy picture of a girl who felt just like you feel, although
She thought he knew me and this is what she said

Chorus

When I looked up and I saw you it just felt so right
And this is the first day of my life
You’re the first thing and last thing that enters my mind
And this is just the first day of my life
When I looked up and I saw you it just felt so right
And this is the first day of my life
Wishing my dreams would come to be alive
And this is the first day of my life